28.10.13

KSHV-Kaposi's Sarcoma-Associated HerpesVirus

Infection with this virus is thought to be lifelong, but a healthy immune system will keep the virus in check. Many people infected with KSHV will never show any symptoms. Kaposi's sarcoma occurs when someone who has been infected with KSHV becomes immunocompromised due to AIDS, medical treatment or very rarely aging. Since persons infected with KSHV will asymptomatically shed the virus, caution should be used by sex partners in having unprotected sex and activities where saliva might be shared during sexual activity. Prudent advice is to use commercial lubricants when needed and avoid deep kissing with partners with KSHV and HIV infections or whose status is unknown. Blood tests to detect infection exist, but they are largely restricted to research universities, since biomedical companies have not found it economical to develop these tests.




PTSD-Flashback timeline
RE:  Kaposi's sarcoma-associated herpesvirus
Dear Whom It May concern,


Met 2008-Married.
had low self-esteem so
previous expectation during college
went out the window;
third wife-my first marriage.
forced into se x ; so felt
obligated to commit-saw
the signs.the lies.
the porn. the belittling.
alcohol. adultery.
But at that time- these
didn't fit into what I now
know were 'signs'.


Huge explanations of my
upbringing visible
on; "Haunting the Korean Diaspora";
written by Grace cho.


active duty USAF-
lots of signs - but for this
topic; every day was hell - but
this 'Kaposi's Sarcoma-Associated herpevirus'
stands out.

I knew he was medically ill-
but I couldn't answer
what disease he passed on to me.
Many - but
here is one on Kaposi's Sarcoma-Associated Herpesvirus.
( significant-Kaposi's sarcoma prevelant
among ho mo s e xuals and associated to AIDS;
among his abuses - the most evil
root of his abuse was him exposing me
to all his s e xual sickness ; hiding
, lying, hidden cams- all a sham i was
told lies of...the porn - it wasn't his -
his outings- it was somewhere other than
the wh ore houses....my bank account
depleted without explanation - hitting
rock bottom - his mother's death at age51-
so soon after visiting our place-  the unusual
signs...trying to piece it together)


His birthday in April.
So New Hampshire household
was to fly to
Hickam Afb, Honolulu,HI
for his b-day.
He received-never gave;
but rented a van for his family.
I am always the last to know.

2009-April29th; his b-day;
was to visit sometime in May2009.

Instead of his biological mother
Arleen whiting; she flies in;
1. herself-Arleen Demers-Nault Whiting-j's mother.
2. Robert Whiting; j's step father.
3. Kirk whiting; J's half brother.
4. Arleen's sister from Methuen,Ma; Aunt Lillian-b i s exual;
   lesbian-hidden family secret I am not to find out til
   years- years -later on my own.pix of her-them-and sick j.
nauseating.
5. Aunt Lillian's husband.
Five flew in instead of two!


Fights among themselves-there's chaos-there's
dysfunctional signs but I keep hoping it was
all going to be better - wishfully- now shudder
at what they might do to daughter . shudder of disgust.
creeps.


6.  two days and i couldn't comprehend the dysfunction.
 High School Kirk sticking underwear borrowed from J
dangling to my face-asking where i want it; while
weird-eyeing -waiting for an amusing reaction.

 ( thought very weird)
...no idea of incest....


7. Finally, i send an SoS ; talk to J in private;
tell him - i need to go stay at a hotel.

8.  from the time an ink dried on marriage paper-
the glazed evil-cold look set in; I knew
the routine of him 'acting like he is listening';
then talk behind my back belittling me as the
'nuisance b i t ch'.   ..


....I stay at the hotel on-base;
he comes over very late- wake up;
my legs are itching all over.
...bed bugs? but J showed zero signs.
He is not itching.


the five leave.

I notice the smell on the bed is foul.
I keep mum.


For the next two days, my legs are
broken out in hive-swallon and
red worts all over like chicken pox...
I already had chicken pox.

Just on my legs- non stop itching-
and swelling.


note; from day one - I noticed
on J'; his red protruding warts on his
chest-back.
red round protrusions.

and I noticed his bruises on back of his
calf muscle that never went away.

then later -i'd notice it on his thighs.

he's shrug it off.
he's hairy- hidden; but I see it.

And notice the lack of communication.
lack of marriage.
strangers.
cold.
distant.
strangers.


Always out and on his own schedule.
there is no marriage.

Anyhow - now;
1.  J's double life-
2.  J's torso-back having those red-protruding warts.
3.  his bruise-shade like discoloring on his calf
and his thigh .
4.  Then my break out - swallon and red-warts
like pox all over; unbelievably itchy.

above spells out;
Kaposi's sarcoma-Associated Herpesvirus Infection.
a.  kissed him after he did his sick with
those five. And whoever else he and those five
met up with.
b.  I recall kiss - but recall - he did not
want s e x.

c.  then kissing him good-nite; he sleeps
next to me; i wake up to uncontrollable itch
- started mild - then within 24hours ;
both legs are swallon and red-pox all over;bumps
and painful...he is fine.


d.  he takes me on-base;
That base has restrictions
barely lifted for me
to seek civilian physician; it's a given
one must see military clinician.


The civilian hired physician
on-duty
jokes with J that
have similarity;
Caucasian to asian wife.

I find it disturbing that I am
shrugged shouldered-'bed bug'
from hotel room (even when
I mention J' is fine when I am
not; we spent the night
together; only I am infected?);
something lightly passed over-
he's caucasian and you're asian.
closed.
no conversation.

told to apply topical cream.
return in 10days?!?!



So painful details aside;
within 6 months
after the Five relatives' visit;
phone all- his mother's dying.


Red Cross Humanitarian
transfer.

worst thing on earth.
Note; the post in Massachusetts
Hanscom AFB,MA affiliated
Solar Oberservatory is off base work site;
his weather job would never
qualified him for that billet; but
he got it; Peabody,MA apt
being two hour drive one way
to his mom's house in Ossipee,NH.


All the details aside;
all the sick abuse aside;
bottomline-
Arleen, age51.
Healthy.
Then she is with
stage4 lung cancer.

Her face is swallon.
Her legs are swallon.
She can't talk.
She can't walk.
She is immobile.
this is after the visit
the Five of them had during
stay in Hawaii.

what sickness - se x ual activity- trigger
her...omg.


she refuses chemo -decides to die;
that is after I make the calls
and pleads to have
her moved to
Boston's Cancer center-but
while on the phone with me
she agreed; as soon as she
listens to others-she
is ready to die without
seeking chemo.

She dies at age 51.
I recall a swallon face.
Swallon Legs.
She ballooned up like a marshmellow
before her death.

Snow storm in Massachusetts.
She passed away Feb2011.

July2011- J's uncle dies in his 70's
from 'so called lengthy alzeihmer's';
nothing seems to fit.

what I am told- nothing
fits the dysfuctional secretcy
I pick up on...


Arleen on paper might read
-Lung Cancer; I believe
it's associated to
Kaposi-Sacoma-AIDs-Ashkenazi-Jew gene
that did infect her lungs.


I do believe I contracted
Kaposi's Sarcoma-Associated-Herpesvirus
the two months after
the 5 visitors left.
I recall both my legs were swallon-itching
with red breakouts-and my bleeding gums.
I never had bleeding gums til it started then.


What other sickness i would have
been exposed to- I didn't get
checkups...I didn't know I had concerns...

With two deaths
(arleen at age 51)...
(J's Nault uncle in his 70's)
...I recall meeting this Uncle once
during a visit to J's grandmother's
house in Methuen,Ma.
It was after his mother died.
I did not see mourning in J.
And I thought it weird that
j hushed me from mentioning
his mother's death to this grandmother,
Theresa Nault.

There's something secretive-
different-
looks they give-
I am not told...I shrug it off
like I am in a vampire movie-
I am just new, I figure - the weird
feeling-
Started also to see the Real Mean
angry-foul mouthing-cursing-
physically abusive-kicking me with his work boots-
choke holding me
to keep the cellphone away from my reach...
the ....horrors....so many escalated horrors....


I recall the "Fetal Alcohol Syndrome"
slanted blue eyes of J's father
identical to the very short
J's grandmother; the Nault side.
How J's mild-personality-easygoing-hard-working
father was a recovering alcoholic.

How baby pictures show
of toddler jeremy sitting
by 1960's hippie early 20's parents
in a cigarett smoke filled room
playing the guitar.

I shrug it off as the 60's;
but now- the alcohol-
incest between J's mother's
Demers side and J's father's
Nault side has long
history of out-of-sight-incest
background dating back to
Quebec,canada ancestry-
Cajun,Louisiana ancestry-
tracing by names-towns-timelines
researched.

No talk.
No past .

I am to piece it all...
I do it for my daughter - I hope
all that she knows of heritage-
she'd be more empowered.

I feel more empowered now that i know
where I stand-what I am exposed to...

Before the 'knowing';
I was so lost- didn't know where
the lies began and where it went...

Now, I am seeing the who picture.

Sick reality.
Yet, I now know where I stand.

Knowing helps me prepare for the
trapping.

Knowing helps me get back what i lost.

Knowing is far more helpful
than being deceived.


KSHV-Kaposi's sarcoma-associated herpesvirus
(KSHV); sick.
Now I have a name to what disease
I contracted from him.